A good friend once told me “Sometimes God will call you to a journey but not to the destination”. Three months ago I felt God’s call on my heart to stop touring. The life of a touring artist is one of pouring out with little pouring in. Doing it for too long can leave anyone dry. When I was offered an opportunity to be the worship pastor for a church in London it seemed like a sure sign this was what God wanted me to do and a good reason to settle down with my career in touring.
After a farewell tour, packing my life up, and heading out to texas to spend a week at the churches main campus before I left for London, God closed the door. I headed back home to California with questions and failure floating around my mind.
By God’s grace, I happened to be reading the story of Joseph. The life of Joseph was one of bad and confusing circumstances that God allowed to happen to bring Joseph to save all of Israel and ultimately pave the way for Jesus who brought salvation to the world. But he had to go through years of slavery and unjust imprisonment to lead him to that end result. We can’t allow ourself to predict any of our future by what our circumstances look like. Because ultimately God is enough for us and He is working all the junk in our life to good. He just calls us to be like Joseph, a child of God who imperfectly pursued a relationship with his Father.
My life circumstances may be confusing right now and unsure for what God may have next, but I have confidence in Him. Confidence that my identity is not in any job that I obtain, not in my abilities, my inabilities, my past, my future or my failures. My identity is not in being a songwriter, musician, touring artist, or worship leader. My identity is in Jesus, who, by His grace, made me into a child of God. Who made me in the image of Himself and is making me new ALL through the great work of His blood being shed on the cross that covers me.
In conclusion, I am honestly very much at peace with where God currently has me. I know he has me here to be with my family, I have confidence that this is just one more step in the bumpy journey that ultimately, like Joseph, leads to Jesus.
Thank you for your love, prayers, and support over all the years and the years to come. Love you all!